This rain that falls

I just don't understand what happened...what's worse is that I don't understand how I allowed this to happen...as I hide behind this smile...the guise of this facade, I'm slowly dying inside...these tears nonchalantly trail down my cheeks leaving stains of the pain I'm experiencing...but I continue to portray this happy character as I show off this brave face when the reality is that this is merely a disguise shielding my true feelings...the facetious smile on my face is contradicted by the gloss of my eyes...but I'm not gonna cry...not now at least, however in the comfort of my shower I will let this rain fall freely